Being a Stay At Home Mom

As I'm sitting here listening to my two boys playing by themselves, I started getting teary eyed. Yes me. Mrs non-cryer and non sentimental me. You see, I love these two sweet kids more than anything (besides God, my fantastic husband, and family and friends of course.) I am finally in a place in my life where I am enjoying them so much. Let me explain...

When we decided to get pregnant with Owen, I knew I wanted to be a working mom. I loved my job and was using my degree and I was convinced I could do it all. So I did. He went to an amazing home daycare and I went to teach music. When Owen was right around a year old, I started to have a heart change. God totally changed my perspective and I knew I was ready to find a way so I could stay at home with Owen. 

So, after deciding to stay home, I found out my school I had been at for 6 1/2 years was closing, Grant got a job at Walmart IT in Arkansas, and we found out we were pregnant with Brady. So this was definitely confirmation to me that when one door closes (or several) another will open.  This was also confirmation to me that I was feeling led by God and was seeing that He had a plan all along. He definitely was ordering our steps.

But once again, I thought when Brady's at a good enough age, I will go back to work. I started struggling with the whole "I can be a working mom" idea again. But God reminded me of all of Brady's food allergies and I feel so much more comfortable at this time in his life knowing he is in my care. 

Fast forward to a month ago...I had been looking at job postings, updated my resume, had enrolled to take a class so I could get certified in Arkansas, and then God stopped me. I all of a sudden became content in my job "just" being a mom.  I became ok with the idea that I can still use my musical gifts on the side, but letting the role of wife and mom take center stage right now. 

You see, I have had an inner conflict for so long about missing out on my career and not using my degree and feeling guilty that I was "just" a stay at home mom. I know I probably was listening to other voices asking me when I was going back to work too and that would always get me thinking about when was I?  There were days I was physically present with my kids but not 100% mentally and emotionally here. I wasn't giving them all of me and was not happy in my "job". Also, my whole life I was known as a musician and that's what my dream was growing up.  I knew I wanted to use my musical gifts in some capacity for my career.  I was never one of those women who talked about wanting to get married and have kids.  It was a desire of mine of course, but it was not a priority.  So, talk about a heart change. 

I don't know what it is about the title of "Stay at Home Mom" or why society looks down upon this title. If I can be honest, I was one of those women who honestly had no earthly idea what a stay at home mom did all day. I had it all wrong. Stay at home moms don't simply just stay home. There are days where we enjoy staying home all day playing and doing activities, but we also get out and do things too. For a while, I didn't know how to be a sahm and didn't know what to do all day. I felt like I was stuck somewhere between being a working mom and a sahm and didn't belong to either world.  Let me be clear, I do not think there is ANYTHING wrong with being a working mom and will be a working mom again when the boys are school aged.  I think everyone is free to make their own decisions for their families and no outside voices should ever make any mom feel guilty about her decision.  

I now think of it like this: when you first start a new job, there is a year or two where you are learning as you go and by time that third year rolls around you feel comfortable in your position.  Maybe it is because I have been staying home with my kids for 3 years now that I am starting to feel more comfortable in my skin.  I am able to stay home with them to teach, take care of, guide, mold, play with, nurture, read to, and love on them. I have just never felt such a peace as I do now in this season of my life. I am enjoying my children so much. They are really becoming best friends. 

I know that my degree will never go away and that music will always be there too, but for right now I know God is wanting me to feel settled in taking care of these sweet little people that He gave me. I know listening and following His voice is the best decision I could ever make. If Jessica 5 years ago had told Jessica today that this is what I would be doing, I would have laughed at her.  Isn't it funny how sometimes God has other plans for our lives that are even better than our own? I'm so glad I finally stopped to listen to Him.

Jess

Owen's funnies

At 2 1/2...
-He started calling Grant and I "babe"
-Me "Owen you're being super whiny, you need to use your big boy voice." Owen "I not 'Super Why', he's right there" as he points to the tv that's not on. Oh geez... Fyi...super why is one of his favorite shows
- Owens bed time prayer "Jesus thank you for mommy and dray (Brady) and mommy and mommy and daddy and Owen and mommy and mommy"..."and trucks."
-Owen told Jess that she's a "good boy"
- Owen "knock knock" me "who's there" Owen "Owen" me "Owen who" Owen "Aunt Jeralyn"
-I walked into Owens room to see why he was laughing so hard and looking up at me he lets out some huge farts and starts cracking up and I started laughing with him. You know you have a son when...
-"Mommy this is scary Pete. Don't worry he's not scary for you. He just eats my pizza."
- Apparently my brother in law Ivory has some hidden talents I didn't know about. While we were in the car Owen told me Nuckle Ivory was flying the airplane that flew over our car and he was singing the Christmas song on the radio

At 3...
-Chica get out of the chicken! (Translation...Tinka get out of the kitchen.)
- Owen "Mommy you know the muffin man? Well he needs to go to timeout because he ate all the muffins and didnt leave any for Brady, me, and my mommy."
- With our new big blocks, Owen was helping me build a house complete with a couch, bed, pool, and trees. Then Owen takes a block and says here comes the monster and starts hitting all of them and says "you'll never be a house now hahahaha!"
-Owen in the car on the way home from church "Mommy Brady talks but he doesn't make real words. He makes no sense."
- While having dinner at Chilis, Owen yells out he has to pee, asks the waitress if she's a nurse, what a spider and snake are, and tells me there's a waterfall and mice on the floor. Needless to say our waitress was cracking up!
- "Mommy Donald Duck is a duck."
-Owen licked sand and said "I wanted to see what it tasted like."
-Owen "mommy Brady took your belly belt (bra) and won't give it back."
-Coming home from preschool "Owen did you make any new friends today?" Owen "Mommy I don't make people, Jesus does."
- Me "Owen what did you do at preschool?" O "mommy I was the policeman and I got all the bad guys except there was one good guy."
- Owen asked "mommy who are my 'aunts'?" I answered "Jeralyn, Janna, and Emily" He sat there for a minute then asked "but who are my grasshoppers?"
- Brady said "ahwahwah". I said "Owen do you know what he said?" Owen said "Brady said when its summertime the trash truck will stink up the car.
-"Mommy you need a boocabooca and daddy's gonna give it to you"
-While in Walmart "Everybody get out of the way!  We need groceries!"

Christmas, Jess Bday, and New Years

Before Christmas, the boys took pictures with Santa. Owen ran right up to him and jumped in his lap and Brady was a little unsure of why I was wanting him to sit on this strange man's lap.  He followed big brother over to him though and took a picture. Owen had his class play and party.  He was a shepherd and was so adorable.  He sang songs too and loves music!

 

For Christmas this year, we had the boys open their gifts Saturday the 21st so they could have all weekend to play with their new toys.  We had a fun family day of listening to Christmas music, playing with toys, eating cinnamon rolls, watching movies, and just being together as a family.

Christmas Eve and Christmas day we went to Mimi's house and celebrated Christmas with daddy's side of the family.  We had a lot of fun hanging out, opening gifts, and eating yummy food.

The Saturday after Christmas, we had mommy's side of the family over for our Christmas celebration.  We had so much fun exchanging gifts, eating, watching football, shopping, playing with cousins, watching movies, and reconnecting.  Brady and Owen love playing with their cousins so much!

Jess's birthday is on New Year's Eve.  I had a lot of fun going to breakfast and shopping with Grant while Aunt Jer watched the boys.  Later on, Jess went to dinner with some awesome girlfriends and Jeralyn while Grant took the boys to Chick fil a (one of their favorite places) with some other guys and their kiddos.  Then we went bowling with our kiddos and friends.  It was a super fun day!

Lately...

Here are a few pics and updates about what has been going on in Perestaville the past couple of months. Since my last post in August, we have celebrated:

Fall and Halloween

 

Thanksgiving

 

and will be celebrating Christmas in a couple of weeks.  You both experienced your first snowstorm of the Winter last week and snow is still on the ground.

 

 

Also, I have begun watching Eden (my niece) since her mommy has gone back to work.  Eden has fit right in around here and the boys LOVE having her around. 

We celebrated Jace going to be with Jesus.  You both love all of your cousins so much.

The boys have both gotten taller, are still active as boys are, and definitely fight and play like brothers.  Owen is in 4t clothes and size 8-9 shoes and Brady is in 24 month clothes and size 6 shoes.

They love to play all boy toys including cars, trucks, trains, superheroes, legos, and blocks. Owen loves puzzles and they both love books. Owen loves to chill at times and watch his favorite shows or movies and has just started to pretend more and make up songs. He is very smart and loves to learn and is still going to preschool 2 mornings a week.  Brady is very active and is rarely sitting still. He loves to play, climb, and to be rough.  He also is our snuggler and loves to read in our laps. 

 

We love our boys so much and are so blessed to have both of them.

 

Jess and Grant (mommy and daddy)

Update on life

Update on life...

Brady had to get his 15 month shots yesterday :-( That was a pretty interesting appointment to say the least.  They told us to get there 20 minutes early to fill out paperwork for their new computer system, then as I go to the counter, they said it looked like I didn't need to fill out paperwork. So, since Brady's appointment wasn't until 4pm, we had 20 minutes to kill or so I thought.  They didn't even call us back until 4:25.  AHHHH!!!!!  Anyways, he is a cute, chubby, precious boy.  He is 23 pounds now (27th percentile) and I can't remember in the commotion how long he was but I do know he was in the 77th percentile. 

Brady's personality has really taken off and he is such a hoot!  He is walking all over the place now.  He loves to make noises and looks at us and babbles like we know what he is saying.  He is working on getting new teeth in so isn't too thrilled about that, but he is dealing with it. 

 

We cannot believe that Owen will be starting preschool in a week and a half!!!!  Where does the time go?  I don't think he fully understands what we mean when we tell him he is starting school, but I know he will absolutely love it!  He is getting so tall, smart, handsome, funny, and just downright cute.  He has become such a big helper in anything I ask him to do around the house or to help out with his little brother. 

 

 

These two boys love each other so much!  They really do get along really well and love to play together.  Their personalities are night and day, but I think it compliments each other well.  Our prayer as they get older is that they continue to love each other and truly become best friends. 

 

As for Grant and I, we are loving being parents and are still best friends.  We definitely have a crazy, fun filled, exhausting at times life, but wouldn't change it for anything.  Grant is still busy working in the ISD department for Walmart, and I am busy hanging out with our boys and doing playgroups, library, playgrounds, or whatever else comes our way.  We love our church so much and Jess is playing keyboard on the worship team and Grant is serving on the sound team. 

Brady 1 year!

Sweet Brady,

You have officially reached the one year milestone!  We cannot believe how quickly this year has flown by.  You are such an amazing addition to our family and we are so lucky to have our lives.  Your personality is so funny and unique and you were definitely hand crafted by God.  We cannot wait to continue watching you grow up into a strong man of God.  We love you more than words can express and are so proud to call you ours. 

Love,

Daddy, mommy, and Owen

Brady 11 months

Brady,

You are 11 months old.  It is hard to believe that in less than a month you will be a year old!  Time flies when you're having fun, and you my dear are a ton of fun. 

You just learned this week how to stand by yourself for about 10 seconds, will reach out for what you want, will mimic what you see someone else doing, and learned to clap.  You are also becoming quite the climber.  You will climb up the stairs, and now you are climbing on the laundry basket and into chairs by yourself.  You are learning so fast and your personality is really starting to shine through more and more.

You love, love, love to eat.  If it wasn't for your allergies, you would literally eat anything we put in front of you.  We are finding more and more that you can eat or will modify what we are eating for you.

Nothing has changed much in your sleep routine.  You take 2 naps a day at around 9 and 1 and go to bed from 7pm-7am each night.  You have become such a good sleeper and will put yourself to sleep.  We think back to 6 months ago, and things are so much different now.

You are working on getting some more teeth and have been chewing anything you can get your hands on.  You have tons of drool coming out right now too. 

You still say mama and dada (still not directly to your dad or I), say "uh-uh" for uh-oh, "nuh-nuh" for no no, and you are starting to babble in your own special language so much more.  You will look directly at your dad, Owen, or I and will just start talking. 

We have started saying no to you a lot more.  You have decided the last couple of weeks to throw your food or cup when you are finished eating, and are catching on to the word no.  You sometimes think it is funny though and will smile at us when we say it.

You and Owen still play so good together.  Poor buddy, we can tell you're the little brother thought.  Owen thinks he is supposed to help us correct you, but is also a super great big brother and helps whenever we need him to.  When asked to share his toys with you though, he will give you the car missing a wheel, the toys with no batteries, or other gimpy toys that he has no interest in. 

This month you celebrated your first Easter.  You and Owen dressed alike.  Also this month, you went to Louisiana to meet Mawmaw Barbara and the rest of mommy's family for the first time!  They absolutely loved you and thought you were a sweet baby. 

We love you so much and can't wait to finish watching you grow up.